Depression

[Steve 10,227]

So I was wondering, this might be a touchy subject for some but how many people on this forum had/have depression in a serious state. I can personally say I have had this illness and it is not something I wish upon my worst enemy, it is such a terrible psychological disorder that haunts a lot of people.

For me it sent me crazy, I was seeing a councillor and a psychologist about it. At one stage as little as 1 year ago I was suicidal and thought about it far too often, I do not tell many people about it because it was such a dark time in my life but I can gladly say I have come such a long way in such a short period of time. So many people around the world suffer from this disorder on a daily basis and live with it for most of there lives. The main thing that kept me going was my love for Chelsea and my friends and family. I also would look at things in the world, for example wars and poverty. It made me see that there was so many worse things happening in the world.

My trip around the world helped a lot but before I left, every night for about 6 months I would have serious panic attacks that would leave me in tears. It's not easy and even now I still have my bad days. I have been on medication for around a year now, and with out it I don't know where i would be. I don't really like taking it but it's something that I had to do in the end.

Just thought it would be interesting to see if any others on the forum have had these problems in there life. Also if there is anything I might be able to do to help I would be more then welcome to try and help.

[Tomo 21,733]

There has been days i haven't felt too great but i have never got too bad thankfully. I had a similar problem once when i had a fit twice when i was 16 and for about 3 years everytime i smelt the cause of it i panicked, convinced myself i was going to pass out again and drunk about a litre of water.

Glad to see you're getting better tho mate

[Steve 10,227]

There has been days i haven't felt too great but i have never got too bad thankfully. I had a similar problem once when i had a fit twice when i was 16 and for about 3 years everytime i smelt the cause of it i panicked, convinced myself i was going to pass out again and drunk about a litre of water.

Glad to see you're getting better tho mate

Thank you mate!

[Blue Armour 4,280]

All I want to say is, its a never a good thing to hang onto even if it does give makes you reflect on things...

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So many people around the world suffer from this disorder on a daily basis and live with it for most of there lives. The main thing that kept me going was my love for Chelsea and my friends and family. I also would look at things in the world, for example wars and poverty. It made me see that there was so many worse things happening in the world.

A very good outlook there, Steve

Wish more people could share a similar perspective.

[LDN Blue 7,903]

It's a very big step to come out & admit to have had depression at all. Well done Steve, and it's good to know you came out.

I know people who weren't so lucky and chose to end things in their own way.

[Kez 2,727]

A lot of respect for that post Steve. Glad to hear you're doing alot better and came out of it okay.

[Badboy 1,526]

Steve that was a fantastic post and i think you have a lot of courage to have done that.

[warnie_666 1,081]

So I was wondering, this might be a touchy subject for some but how many people on this forum have had/have depression in a serious state. I can personally say I have had this illness and it is not something I wish upon my worst enemy, it is such a terrible psychological disorder that haunts a lot of people.

For me it sent me crazy, I was seeing a councillor and a psychologist about it. At one stage as little as 1 year ago I was suicidal and thought about it far too often, I do not tell many people about it because it was such a dark time in my life but I can gladly say I have come such a long way in such a short period of time. So many people around the world suffer from this disorder on a daily basis and live with it for most of there lives. The main thing that kept me going was my love for Chelsea and my friends and family. I also would look at things in the world, for example wars and poverty. It made me see that there was so many worse things happening in the world.

My trip around the world helped a lot but before I left, every night for about 6 months I would have serious panic attacks that would leave me in tears. It's not easy and even now I still have my bad days. I have been on medication for around a year now, and with out it I don't know where i would be. I don't really like taking it but it's something that I had to do in the end.

Just thought it would be interesting to see if any others on the forum have had these problems in there life. Also if there is anything I might be able to do to help I would be more then welcome to try and help.

I like Fighters. Fighters who fight their way out of depression instead of taking the easy way out which is ending your life. Good Job!!

Been there done that....Patience is the key!!

[CHOULO19 24,332]

So I was wondering, this might be a touchy subject for some but how many people on this forum have had/have depression in a serious state. I can personally say I have had this illness and it is not something I wish upon my worst enemy, it is such a terrible psychological disorder that haunts a lot of people.

For me it sent me crazy, I was seeing a councillor and a psychologist about it. At one stage as little as 1 year ago I was suicidal and thought about it far too often, I do not tell many people about it because it was such a dark time in my life but I can gladly say I have come such a long way in such a short period of time. So many people around the world suffer from this disorder on a daily basis and live with it for most of there lives. The main thing that kept me going was my love for Chelsea and my friends and family. I also would look at things in the world, for example wars and poverty. It made me see that there was so many worse things happening in the world.

My trip around the world helped a lot but before I left, every night for about 6 months I would have serious panic attacks that would leave me in tears. It's not easy and even now I still have my bad days. I have been on medication for around a year now, and with out it I don't know where i would be. I don't really like taking it but it's something that I had to do in the end.

Just thought it would be interesting to see if any others on the forum have had these problems in there life. Also if there is anything I might be able to do to help I would be more then welcome to try and help.

That is very courageous of you Steve to create this thread. Do you mind me asking, though: When you were suffering from depression, did you realize it on your own? Or did you need to see a psychologist to figure out that what you are suffering from is depression?

[Kieran. 6,317]

I've have depression and it spirals in and out of control. I've learned to control it over time. I'm 18, it was at its worst when I was around 14-15. I've also had suicidal thoughts, but thankfully those have gone away in recent years.

I've always come from a good background family wise, so environment never had a part in my depression. My parents were always very supportive of me.

My dad has depression too, so I guess it runs in the family. I don't take meds for it anymore, so hopefully I'm starting to conquer it.

If anyone has depression and needs someone to talk to, please add me on facebook. I know what you're going through. Props Steve on the thread.

[Term-X 7,891]

When the guy working at Mcdonalds gets depressed and starts questioning his real position in life, it interferes with his ability to ask 'would you like fries with that?' with a plastered on smile. So in order for society to function like a well oiled machine, the lowest cogs have been told that being unhappy is wrong.

So it depends on who you ask, whether depression can be good or bad. Society will tell you it's bad, because society likes to manufacture worker bees, not realists, philosophers, artists or entrepreneurs. The rewards are not nearly as material or tangible when someone is depressed, compared to having a solid, happy, reliable if maybe a bit mindless, peasant.

[Kieran. 6,317]

When the guy working at Mcdonalds gets depressed and starts questioning his real position in life, it interferes with his ability to ask 'would you like fries with that?' with a plastered on smile. So in order for society to function like a well oiled machine, the lowest cogs have been told that being unhappy is wrong.

So it depends on who you ask, whether depression can be good or bad. Society will tell you it's bad, because society likes to manufacture worker bees, not realists, philosophers, artists or entrepreneurs. The rewards are not nearly as material or tangible when someone is depressed, compared to having a solid, happy, reliable if maybe a bit mindless, peasant.

Having depression is the worst.

[Steve 10,227]

That is very courageous of you Steve to create this thread. Do you mind me asking, though: When you were suffering from depression, did you realize it on your own? Or did you need to see a psychologist to figure out that what you are suffering from is depression?

It was extremely hard for me at the start. I did not really know what was going on, all i know i was beating myself up on a daily basis which was really not good! I had my first major panic attack at the Casino here in Melbourne watch Spain V Netherlands World Cup Final... I could never figure out why... After time I knew what was triggering it and it was not just the easy answer, it was a build up of a lot of things. For example losing out in my dream to play football professionally with my knee injury, I was about to start trials with professional clubs here in Australia.

So to answer you question, they helped for a little bit maybe 3 to 4 sessions but after that, to me personally i thought they were just making me worse. I did not want to think about the bad things that have happened in my life and there has been a fair few things that have happened. So i decided on my own to stop seeing them. Some people told me it was a bad idea at the time but to me i would prefer to talk to my friends and family about it instead of speaking to a complete stranger who does not know me in the slightest. They might be professionals in there own field but i think seeing them is not for everyone.

If you know what is going on in your mind you will eventually find a way to overcome it! Fighters are Winners!

Carefree!!

[Steve 10,227]

Also thank you everyone for your replies, I appreciate it!

To be honest, I actually started one of these threads about 9 months ago, to see if anyone else was dealing with it. I ended up deleting it and only one person saw it and that was Zolayes who messaged me every so often to see how I was doing! I thank you for that mate

[Steve 10,227]

Having depression is the worst.

It honestly is and until people actually go through it they wont actually know unless they have close friends or family who deal with it. That said, I pray some day a cure is found to help with these chemical imbalances in the brain because no one deserves to suffer with the stuff that went through mine and so many others heads on a daily basis.

[manpe 10,861]

I've never been diagnosed (never been to a professional), but... but since with this username I'm not anonymous, I will not talk about it more. It's not a safe place for me to talk about it here, wouldn't feel comfortable.

wish you all well

[BlueLion. 21,491]

Glad to hear you're back on the right track, Steve.

Having had the absolute privilege to have met such a passionate football fan as you at the Stoke match, back in April, I can honestly say it gives me great joy to hear how far you have come.

Depression is something that affects more people than you would think, and though I have often found myself 'down in the dumps,' I can honestly say I have never considered myself to be in such a state that I'd call myself depressed. However the human mind is such a delicate object - and hearing your optimistic outlook on life, which emphasises perspective, it reaffirms my belief that you are as great a person as you are a contributor to this forum - and long may that continue.

Good lad! :cfc:

[Steve 10,227]

Glad to hear you're back on the right track, Steve.

Having had the absolute privilege to have met such a passionate football fan as you at the Stoke match, back in April, I can honestly say it gives me great joy to hear how far you have come.

Depression is something that affects more people than you would think, and though I have often found myself 'down in the dumps,' I can honestly say I have never considered myself to be in such a state that I'd call myself depressed. However the human mind is such a delicate object - and hearing your optimistic outlook on life, which emphasises perspective, it reaffirms my belief that you are as great a person as you are a contributor to this forum - and long may that continue.

Good lad! :cfc:

Thank you mate! It was great to meet you also! I am also going to try and start posting a lot more!