@Leif, Move to Kent. Do it. A change of scenery changes a lot of things. It won't make all the pain and whatnot disappear but it will provide a chance to change things for the better. I've recently moved myself, over 900kms away from my hometown to be exact. And it's good, sure I've gone through more than my fair share of rough patches but in the end it's been worth it. Hell I'm going through a lot of similar things to you right now. Change of lifestyle, self improvement etc. How old are you, by the way?