Vincent

Today i had to go to the hospital again for control, everything seemed perfect! He said i was his number one record patient, he never saw someone recover that quick. It's the heaviest chemotherapy they can give, 1 out of five dies immediately of it. They don't give it to guys that are older then 40 because it's to risky. The last patient that had the same chemotherapy and radiotherapy as me was a year ago. Now i'm starting to eat bit by bit, not very much but that will be alright. Ten steps walking and i start to sweat, that's part of the recovery wich goes very slowly. Thanks for all the feedback, really touches me, great to know that i've so much support from you guys! Vincent

I'm back at home after 4 weeks in hospital, the transplantation went well so far we know. The first three months are critique if that will go well it will be alright. I was very ill when i was at the hospital, ive used a lot of morphine because of the pain. I was throwing up a lot and had very much pain after the radiotherapy and chemo. Not in the mood to typ a long story, just a little message from me. Vincent

Since Abramovich came to Chelsea and Torres came to Liverpool. It didn't took long before everybody knew Abramovich liked Torres and a transfer to Chelsea wasn't unthinkable. Since Torres said in the media he's a real Liverpudlian, i thought a transfer to Stamford Bridge would be impossible. Where i was totally not sad about! Since Abramovich bought Torres, a player that is a whole year (not a season) totally invisible and played terrible at the WC! When he bought him i already knew this wouldn't be a good buy. BUT i'm even more mad at Abramovich for this: if your a trainer of Chelsea (Ancelotti) and your boss buys Torres then your as trainer in trouble. If you don't put Torres in the first eleven he gets mad because he spend 58m on him, but if you do put him in the first eleven and you lose he still will be mad.

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Time to shine boys in blue! TIME TO F*CKING SHINE!

Cech Ivanovic - Alex - Terry - Cole Ramires Benayoun - Lampard Torres - Drogba - Anelka

What the #$%# is Anelka doing there?

I know, that's why I mentioned it after the 60th minute. Malouda for Zhirkov and Anelka for Drogba. Rather seen Torres leave the field then Drogba.

Can somebody tell CA he's allowed to make substitudes?

Poor defending by Bosingwa, his crosses are also very weak. Hopefully Lampard will be better next half, time to shine!

Alberto Undiano Mallenco, Spanish ref of the year 2005 and 2007. Cannot be worse then Webb or Ovrebo! Where did you find these statics mate?

Come on, have a little faith!

Soccer isn't about buying players, neither is coaching. Coaching is making the best team with the squad you've got. There are coming more and more Cheslea fans post Abramovich' time. That think we can keep buying players, thats not the way. We should give more chances to McEachran and other youngsters from our youth. 'Building a team' digusts me, money money money! It's a club not a company!

Injuries: Chelsea: Benayoun Manchester United: Ferdinand Hardgreaves Fletcher O'Shea Rafael

Great player for a club like Stoke, you won't win the Champions League with him in our squad. It's a stronger player but i'm not sure about his qualities, i rather see a less strong player with a great technique. He's far away from Chelsea's level, plus we have Kalou, Anelka, Drogba, Malouda, Torres, Borini & Sturridge in front- we don't need him at all. I rather see us playing with Malouda, Drogba & Torres in front we can't keep buying players, give it a little time, goals will follow.

Thanks guys, thanks for all the support, means a lot to me! Most of the examinations went well I have to come back on monday. The transplantation will be on April the 27th, before the transplantation I will get two days of chemotherapy one day of radiotherapy and after this, I'll get the new bonemarrow from my donor wich is my sister. I have to stay in the hospital for 4 to 6 weeks, then recover at home for about a year! Vincent

One of my friends bought me an autographed picture of my favourite player Peter Osgood.

Please watch the Eredivisie before you say things that he's good or something. vd Wiel was terrible against Spartak Moscow, he comes forward many times, his cross is very weak. His performances this season for Ajax are very bad, he is one of the weak links in Ajax' squad.

BlueLion, Lukaku aint that great at all. He looks like Drogba but he doesn't have the same qualities. I would put my money on the fact Lukaku will never be a world top striker. I also don't agree with you regarding Aguero, this guy is maybe as short as Messi but is pretty strong. All three players will be expensive, I don't think we need any of them at this moment. Best player of the three will be Aguero, next one Neymar and the last one is Lukaku wich I think is very overrated haven't showed anything so far except youtube movies.

Scolari is a clown, a joke, i agree. But we also made a big mistake by making him trainer/coach. Please think longer next time before putting this clown in front of our squad! Rather have Gene Hackman in his place!

Damn, I still cannot change my tactics. I keep getting an error, so annoying!

First days at home I felt really ill, since yesterday I'm starting to feel a little better, probably because the MC Donalds food. Today one of my best friend came over and bought an autographed picture of Peter Osgood for me. He really made my day, tomorrow I'm going to have bone marrow puncture. This is the picture:

The second chemotherapy has finished, I'm now back at home wich feels great for 4 to 6 weeks. The chemotherapy was very hard, now I'm still very tired of the whole proces. After this weeks I'm gonna have bone marrow transplantation, but first i will have bone marrow punction to see what the second chemotherapy has done. If the chemotherapy went bad i have to do another (third) chemo but hopefully everything went well so i can go straight to have transplantation. The transplantation takes like half an hour but it's very risky. The transplantation is two days chemo, one day rest, one day irradiate and next step is the transplantation. And then one year recovery! Now I'm just enjoying this weeks, eat good food, sleeping well and stuff. Never Surrender, Vincent

Nicolas 'Too Many Touches' Anelka