I wasn't making an assumption about you, if it came across that way then I apologise, it was just a general example, but until you experience something like that for yourself you can never tell how you will react. Grief does strange things to a person, especially suicide, it can leave a family asking many questions about why it's happened, why they were left to die, & if something more could of been done to prevent it. I guess that's totally different but the way CHOULO19 worded his post I feel was insensitive to the ref & his family. It's a moral decision & as human's paramedics know that it is morally right & their job to save people. We obviously don't know the facts & whether the ref asked for DNR, but people with depression should be given all the help they can be given to overcome it.